Yesterday was supposed to be a day of excitement. Our chance to glimpse you and see you moving for the very first time. Instead, we looked at the screen and you seemed so very small and still. As the lady started to say "I'm so sorry, it's bad news. There isn't a heartbeat", I think I detached from my body and the words seemed so distant, like it was all a dream and happening to someone else faraway.
Your Daddy was very brave and strong and I fell to pieces as I realised that we would never get the chance to meet you. To hold you in our arms and to see the person you would have grown to become. That you would never meet your big sister who would have loved you so very much. So now we must accept that it was never meant to be. For a reason we will never know, you were not destined for this earth. We must try to move forward and carry on as best we can with whatever twists and turns life brings us next.
But I want you to know that we love you with all of our hearts and that I will think of you every day. May you always rest in peace.
Love from your Mama xxx